So I made a decision.
I will let it go.
This feeling. This useless feeling. This agony. This thing which i never wanted to have with you.
Akhirnya keputusan ini sudah keluar dari mulut saya. Butuh waktu yang sangat amat tidak sebentar untuk sedikit saja mengakui bahwa saya memang harus melepas kamu dari pikiran saya. What’s the point by the way, having this uncontrollable feeling?
Well, if we have the same feeling, we cannot be together. You don’t even agree with my dream, my vision of life, my goals. What’s the point?
If we don’t have the same feeling, it will be so awkward afterwards, considering we already are awkward. What’s the point?
Difficult. Very. But must be done. Sadly. So, please, please let me keep my pride. Please don’t let me say this feeling to you ever.
This kind of relationship is good enough for me. You know, me – liking you but doing nothing, and you – knowing me liking you and do nothing. It’s good enough. Even though this situation is still presumably true in my opinion -or should i say in my assumption-, i don’t have a gut to find out how you feel exactly. No, although probably there is 0,001 percent you being in love me. No, no, no.
Well, until I see you again, my dear friend. 
May 9, 2011
rakaerika
